Starting from the questions about songs…
A lot of people speculated before, with GD’s One Of A Kind album, that “That XX” might have been about Top. Before, I considered that concept, but was hesitant to agree 100% that it’s about Top.
After all, I always thought of GD as bisexual, and even now, I do. I thought that it was entirely possible that he was talking about an ex-girlfriend (perhaps Kiko?), and even though I believe that the GTOP pairing is/has been real, I didn’t want to assume that GD had never had another love interest than Top. That, I think, is unrealistic, because of how love, life, and relationships work in reality.
Having said that, however, the lyrics of “Crooked” seem to fit GTOP’s situation perfectly, and his other ships, including Jiko, not so much.
I think Crooked is about Top. He talks about someone who has changed, and who he was very close to, who he loved and made promises with, but that person changed, left him, doesn’t have those feelings anymore. You’ll also notice that there are no pronouns in this song, no “she” no “girl” no “her.” He also asks to be “friends again.”
I actually think a lot of his newer songs seem to be more about Top than anything. For instance, the song “Who You?”, though it does end up using a female pronoun once (he says gigibe), it is the same theme as That XX. The love interest left him for another man… except in this one, he’s more lamenting the loss of the love, and asking for the person to come back. He’s also talks about not knowing if he loves or hates this person.
Now, the reason that I feel these songs are about Top rather than Kiko, who most people seem to believe he’s dating (I will get into that), is that Top’s is the only narrative that reads like that. It’s the only pairing with those themes of someone having left GD for another man, and leaving GD; someone that GD used to be very close to who now seems very distant from.
If Kiko is GD’s current girlfriend, he wouldn’t have any reason to be singing songs about lost love to her. Also, according to most sources, before the resurfacing of the Jiko ship in fall-winter of 2012/2013, Kiko was single. She did not have another boyfriend, and even made posts on her blog about being single and wanting a boyfriend.
Do I think GD and Kiko could be together, currently? Yes.
Do I think GD is as into it as he would like for people to believe? No.
And yes, I understand that that answer sounds really harsh and presumptuous, but I have really considered these things for a while, and this is the conclusion I keep returning to.
For one thing, I think GD panicked when that GTOP thing came on MNET last year, and I really feel that ever since then, he’s tried to assert his heterosexuality a lot more. I feel like that is where Kiko comes in. I feel that he likes her, thinks she’s fabulous and beautiful and likes being around her and being with her and being associated with her. As I said before, I believe he’s bisexual, and I do believe that he is legitimately attracted to this girl.
But I think part of it is trying to assert his heterosexuality.
Part of me gets the impression that this may be a huge part of the GTOP rift. If you’d notice: In the past, when Jiko rumors first came out (the old ones from like 2010), Top told everyone that they were both friends with Kiko and he was closer to her than Ji was.
Fast forwarding back to 2012, after that MNET thing came out, Jiko mysteriously reappeared around the fall of 2012. (Really around the time GD created his instagram.) Oddly enough, this is also around the time that GTOP seemed to go from super close to almost non-existent. Something in me believes that perhaps Jiyong thought getting involved with Kiko again would kill the gay rumors, and that he and Top could continue as normal, but easier because everyone would be under the impression that “GD has a girlfriend” and people would stop suspecting he’s gay. But this time, instead of being a participant in it, Top was not okay with it at all.
GD’s sad love songs all seem to point to a relationship that he misses, that he messed up somehow, and that is the only thing he really wants. There isn’t really a point in the timeline where that fits Jiko, and considering that Jiko has been going on since fall of 2012, and Ji has been writing Coup D’etat throughout 2013, how could these sad “you left me, I’m sorry I messed up, I miss you, and I want you back” themed songs be about her?
I am under the impression that GD pursued Kiko since around fall of 2012, and she clearly seemed open to it, because she appeared at many Big Bang concerts, and went places with him, and started mixing friend circles with him again after that. Another reason the songs don’t seem to be about her. And I’ve said it before, but Jiyong really seemed to push the idea that he liked Kiko. He really seemed to be trying to make it obvious, especially at first. Otherwise, wouldn’t he have tried to keep it more of a secret, whoever he was dating? It isn’t like the members of Big Bang haven’t dated, as evidenced by Seungri’s songs (who he said he wrote about girlfriends). But we have no idea who those girls are… not even an idea of which girls the other members are close with.
The John Lee question is still a bit confusing, for me. If we’re going with the belief that certain songs of GD’s, like That XX, Who You?, Crooked, are indeed about Top, that seems to suggest that, yes, they are dating.
It is certainly very interesting that Top seems to go everywhere with this man, now. It’s clear that John Lee is someone very special to Top, whether or not he’s a lover, but if he was just a friend and mentor, it seems a bit odd that this man, someone who is much older than Top, would literally go with Top to almost everything. The two even attended a wedding together, which is a very couple-like thing to do.
Even at GD’s final concert in Seoul, John Lee seemed to tag along… and interestingly enough, he did not have a picture with the man of the hour (GD), but did have a picture with TaeYang. Top also was said to have left the concert directly after the show ended, and didn’t stay to celebrate with Jiyong.
I get the impression that Top isn’t very happy right now, for whatever reason… he’s distant, not only from Jiyong but from Big Bang in general, and only seems to get out if it’s with John, lately. He could very simply be depressed, and maybe John is helping him cope in some way.
And of course, there’s the very suspicious or interesting activity that is GTOP/Tohn related, such as Jiyong liking GTOP pictures on instagram and then quickly following and unfollowing John Lee (as if he was checking up on the Top/John situation.) He did the same thing on twitter. Also, most of Jiyong’s angsty relationship instagram posts and likes happened sandwiched in between GTOP likes, and DURING his perceived relationship with Kiko (around this time, she was spotted sitting near his parents at one of his concerts, so in theory, Jiko should’ve been fine. GTOP, however, hasn’t been fine for a long time.)
One of the questions suggests they are scared or it’s too complicated for them to be together, and I would agree. I think things got too complicated too fast, and as I said, I think Jiyong panicked, and I think Top was hurt and distanced himself. In GD’s song “Black”, at the end, he goes “baby I just want you back, I want you back, I want you back. Baby I know it’s too late, it just too late, it just too late”, which suggests he feels that whatever situation he’s talking about, he feels is hopeless.
I think Jiyong is a volatile person, a bit too emotional, and too spontaneous and unpredictable. One question said they think he would be hard to be in a relationship with. I agree, and I imagine Top felt that, as well. Top seems more straight-forward, and reserved… he seems like someone who wants something calm and steady, but that’s not possible with an emotional fireball like Jiyong. Who admits that he does stupid things and sabotages his own relationships.
As for whether they could ever be together again? That’s something that’s difficult to say. Top seems very fed-up… I think GD is sort of his tie to music, and it seems that ever since he and GD have had their rift, he’s not even interested in Big Bang anymore. (God forbid.) Likewise, Top … is beginning to seem like someone who aligns himself to fit the person he’s with. He seems similar to John Lee, now, in his style of dress, his attitude, and his career goals which have seemed to become more about film than music. Before, he and GD had similar styles, and competed for the craziest hair colors, and came up with great music together.
I should say… I think Top would like to be done, but I don’t think he is. In his face, he looks sad, and when he’s around Ji, he looks uncomfortable, as if he’s happy and still likes Ji, but also sad and trying not to like him or want to be around him. And Ji, on the other hand, needs affection, so he almost hangs off of all the other members, which seems to leave Top as a lone 1 apart from the other 4.
I also think GTOP still talk and hang out sometimes, but it’s definitely not as often. I think GD would like to have GTOP back, and Top is definitely the one trying to stay away.
I really wish them peace in the future. I don’t so much care if they’re a couple… I just wish them peace. The two of them seem very not okay, lately, and it’s just frankly heartbreaking. Seungri seems like the glue of the group right now; he’s always pushing OT5, and talking about staying together until they’re old, and promising to drag Top to GD’s concert kicking and screaming… so, hopefully Seungri’s efforts are enough to help mend the rift somewhat. Not for GTOP’s happily ever after, but just so that they can heal and have some peace.
I think that they love each other deeply. The deepest loves always hurt the most. So I think that they could maybe be together one day…. but right now, they seem very broken.
This is definitely a speculation, and I apologize for how long it seems… but these are all my opinions based on what is happening currently, and what it seems like, to me. GTOP is a ship I’ve given a lot of thought into… and I truly, truly believe that something beyond friendship has happened between the two of them, and I truly believe that this is why Top has been so MIA lately. Unfortunately, they seem to have experienced the very reason that dating co-workers and close friends is frowned upon…
As with previous GTOP answers, I’m still not sure if they were every “boyfriends”, as in, with a label, but I do believe they were lovers and that it got very complicated…